WHAT IS ESSENTIAL AWAKENING MENTORING?

In this Instagram age of perfectionism, where we only see the glossy finished product, trying to sell us on the false belief that there is ever an endpoint to the process of living. Selling us on a complete and neat as a pin, artistically eccentric or heartstoppingly adventurous outcome that you can achieve too, if you just do X, Y, Z.
Promising you a carefree life, dripping in Bling and living in far-flung exotic locales, living in the best body and with the perfect partner.
They try to sell you on a mirage, they try to convince you that now having done X, Y, Z that you will be fully in charge, fearless, blissful and the creator of your own fabulous destiny.

Of course, this is attractive, and it is understandable that you might get convinced that you need it and that they can help you get it... whatever that 'it' is.

But I am here to paint you a different picture... an imperfect picture, one that is incomplete and still under construction. A picture that by the grace and mercy of Allah (swt) will only be completely revealed on Judgement Day.

So rather than focus on a sparkly finished product, I aim to support women in their creative, courageous and imperfect process of living.

In the last 4 years, I went from penniless, unemployed, homeless, devastated from my 2nd toxic marriage, and dreading dealing with my dad. I was filled with fear and loathing (mostly for myself), I was angry, bitter and resentful.

I, like most people, believed that if everything on the outside was better then I would be happier; so I focused on trying 'to tie my camel' and thus change my condition. Which is what all the previously stated Instagram illusions are having you believe. That if you change your situation, your appearance, your mindset then you will get X, Y, Z on offer.

Now before the Back to the Fitra/Inside -Out training, I recall the elusive job hunt was filled with fear, anxiety, self-doubt, and resentment. I was mistakenly believing the hype that financial and life success was all in my hands and if I did not get the riches and success; that it was due to a lacking in me. I was falsely working from the premise that there was something wrong with me that needed fixing so that I could succeed. I falsely connected my efforts to the outcome, not to the process.

So, after 18 months of having returned back to Oz from Pakistan; I got a full time fixed term contract, I rented a cute apartment, refurnished my life, grew my coaching business, commenced my Back to the Fitra certification and started healing from divorce. I even went to Morocco, believing I would return and quickly pick up where I left off after my fixed-term salaried job ended.

But still, in this time period, I placed the source of my newfound contentment on the somewhat perfect picture of success that I believed was built through my effort and by being in synch to some mysterious energy vibration that had previously been eluding me.

Fast-forward to today, as I ponder on what it is that I aim to support women like you and me with; it is NOT about the outcome. I make no promises about achieving some level of success then being stress-free, always happy and permanently rich.

I sit here today, 6 months after my return from Morrocco, still searching for a full-time job, more expenses due to living in my cute rental apartment. I have no idea the next step, the time-frame of my hopes and dreams are totally on Allah. My material life is uncertain as I write this, but everything about how I feel is different. Unlike round 1 job search over 18 months ago, when I was scared of the uncertainty and taking rejection personally; today having realised the TRUTH of experience, my process of living this uncertain and imperfect life, is out of my overthinking head and instead is propelled heart-wisdom forward.

The implication of realizing the Inside-out paradigm in my life is experiencing serenity, patience, and hope in the face of difficulties and uncertainty. I have more moments now of tasting Tawwakal in action.

Do I still get confused? Hurt? Angry? Scared? YES! Do I love myself fully? NO, I still struggle with body image issues and moments of self-doubt. But they pass quickly now because I know my feelings do not measure the outside world or myself, my feelings just indicate the quality of my thought at that moment. And that thought will pass, being replaced with a new thought and thus the potential for a new reality. I do not get stuck in the fear and upset anymore.

Essential Awakening Mentoring with me is about supporting you to realise your inner wisdom and thereby increase your trust in Allah, knowing that you are not broken and do not need fixing. You have within you already, the capacity to face your trials and uncertainties in life with calm, clarity and contentment.

Oh and update on healing from my ex and healing my relationship with my dad. During my completion of the Back to the Fitra certification in the Inside-out paradigm; I was able to let go of my anger and bitterness over my ex when I realised that I was keeping him alive in my life by keeping him alive in my thoughts, and those thoughts were making me feel as bad as they did when it happened years before. When I realized the implication of separate realities and that none of his treatment was personal to me. When I saw that I did not need to understand the content of his reality to let go. That forgiveness was the absence of all that post-marriage storytelling. Then one day, I just found my self no longer preoccupied with thoughts of him. He became just like any stranger in the crowd, who I wished good for in their day.

As for my dad, the miraculous change in my experience of my relationship with him has inspired my program "Healing our relationships with our aging parents".

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